I struggle with finding the balance between being open and honest (I like the whole 'open book' approach) and not being too overwhelming. I know I don't want to be a gossip about my live, my family's lives, etc. I do know how to keep a secret if it involves others, but I really don't see the value in hiding things about myself. There are aspects of my past that I am not proud of. I have charater flaws I wish would go away. I am sick of feeling ashamed of being ashamed of this. I prefer to own it, learn from it, and grw past it. Why dwell on a past I can't change? Won't that ruin my future?
I am a person who has strong convictions, but I don't want to be pushy about them.
I have studied many topic at great length, but I don't ever want to feel like I know IT ALL.
I am very self assured and yet I second guess myself and what others think of me.
I posses some behaviors that I really wish I was quicker at kicking to the curb.
I am a Christian who happens to live in America. That means that I do not think the American life style is the only way to go. I believe every culture has figured out a few things that they do well and other things they don't. That means I prefer to learn from a nation's successes as well as their failures.
I am constantly frustrated by American Christians who don't realize that they are products of their culture. America does not and never has equaled Godliness. Example, just because Americans prefer dual income families doesn't mean it's somehow Biblical. (Doesn't mean it isn't either. To find out, one must read A BIBLE!)
I am constantly frustrated by the way my country handles birth. America is an atrocious place to give birth and yet everyday our women surrender themselves to a system that doesn't even know it is flawed.
However, the thing that frustrates me the most is the knowledge that people don't want to hear about it. We look around and say, "Well, it's not that bad," as if there were acceptable levels of bad. I find that unacceptable.
